The hurt that I had inflicted upon myself will likely haunt me for the rest of my life. My hedonistic lifestyle had destroyed an intimate part of my life, a part which I would have wanted to share with that one special person
I am a student who experienced God’s grace on the path from the darkness of sin leading to the light of love and peace.
My first unintentional contact with pornography was in secondary school. My mistake was that I opened up to it and gave in to the destructive process, which I was not able to stop. First it was a book from a friend, then a pornographic film. These started the chain reaction that lasted several years. My senses surrendered to the effects of this drug and I sought after similar material. My interests in this field began to intensify. I absorbed the latest porn like a sponge and there was not a single day when I was free of it.
My initial fears that I had fallen into something evil that was taking away my freedom and dignity were dispelled by certain magazines. These claimed that it is a natural stage in the process of adolescence and is simply a sign of maturity and normality. These words appeased my conscience, making me feel that I was doing nothing wrong, and gave me the green light to masturbate – another success of the “most progressive” elite. The hurt that I had inflicted upon myself will likely haunt me for the rest of my life. My hedonistic lifestyle had destroyed an intimate part of me, a part which I would have wanted to share with that one special person chosen for me by God.