I was crying. These were great tears of immense regret. I came to realize that I was acting against God, who had saved my life a couple of years earlier
Everything started innocently. At the age of 13 I was introduced to this “wonderful” (or so I thought) magazine Bravo I went through each issue from first to last page. Eventually I became mainly interested in the regular column “My First Time”.
I read the articles several times and I imagined being the person featured in the articles. I was more and more interested in the topic until it finally led to masturbation. With time it began to become part of my life. I thought that I couldn’t exist without it. I didn’t even entertain the idea that what I was doing was a sin.
It was only when I heard the words “Go in peace” that I felt that I was born again. The center of my world was no longer the “physical pleasures” (as some people refer to addictions). I took Communion during the Holy Mass and for the first time I felt that I was worthy to receive Jesus
A couple of years passed and I came to the point where I had to choose which junior high school to go to. I chose a general education class. The beginning was quite difficult for me. Adjusting to this new environment was a nightmare for me. I wanted to relax and relieve the stress so I got into the habits of smoking and drinking. I didn’t drink too much, but I thought cigarettes were amazing. And this is how I sank deeper into sin, wasting the life given to me by God. Of course, I still went regularly to confession and received Communion, but I received Him with an impure heart, as I did not confess the sin of masturbation.